be the love

•2017/09/24 • Leave a Comment

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doing without expecting back even a thank you is real charity.
i need to be the love.

A Muse of Spring…

•2017/03/26 • Leave a Comment

Spring is burgeoning under the grasping winter snow.  Thawing loose and tightening with another freeze.  This workout strengthening The Mother’s babies.  Soon they will be bursting through, flexing and preening for the sunny spot light.  The world’s a stage?  The earth is the stage and the show goes on and on and on…  So take a pause to enjoy the show, at any point in the day, sunlight hours or under the shine of the moon. Appreciate the simplicity, the complexities, juxtapositions of aesthetics and practicalities.  Spring is a feast for the senses.   Grey daze and balmy air, dampness seeping into the bones of earth and body. The hope of a season both playful and precocious. It’s a hope i love to exist in, to experience, to share. 

A hope i have to foster in a world gone mad while the earth goes on. 

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heART of SPRING art journaling @ A Walk in the Woods

*flowers bursting from the muddy potential of spring earth.

the good, the bad, the in-between

•2016/09/03 • Leave a Comment

meditation thought for the day:  loving all of me; the good & the bad & the in-between.

acceptance is much easier than loving.  but to be whole and healing, i need to let go of shame and regret, love me and all my mistakes and messes and foibles.  everything that came before has brought me here.



Who shall i be today?

•2016/09/02 • Leave a Comment



meditation thought for the day: embracing all of the pieces that make up my personality;

stepping outside myself to observe the ‘movie’ of my life, can i accept that that each ‘character’ has (or has had) their role to play?

Beyond Capitalism – Albert Einstein, 1949

•2016/05/06 • Leave a Comment

it’s nice to know that i have had similar thoughts. does that make me genius material? 😛

Creative by Nature

Screen Shot 2016-01-18 at 10.28.05 PMThe following are excerpts from Albert Einstein’s essay “Why Socialism?” published in the May 1949 issue of the Monthly Review. In this article Einstein describes the systemic problems with capitalism. How as wealth and power is concentrated in the hands of a few the elites form an oligarchy, gaining control of the media and able to sway politicians to make laws in their favor. In this way democracy is subverted…


“Private capital tends to become concentrated in few hands, partly because of competition among the capitalists, and partly because technological development and the increasing division of labor encourage the formation of larger units of production at the expense of the smaller ones.

The result of these developments is an oligarchy of private capital the enormous power of which cannot be effectively checked even by a democratically organised political society.

This is true since the members of legislative bodies are selected by…

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09/18 for today – away from the sun

•2015/09/18 • Leave a Comment

“no passion so effectively robs the mind of all its powers of acting and reasoning as fear”

i’m afraid to write and share any more.  afraid of the shame and disappointment of falling to this disease.  dis-ease.  it is exactly how i feel lately.  like i don’t belong, like i’m not good enough for the recovery rooms.  how freaking crazy is that?  like this current fall from grace is the end of it all.  i can’t let that be true.  i won’t!  more than any fear i am feeling, i  miss feeling better than this.
for today, i reach out to my Higher Power for guidance and comfort.  for today, i am thankful that i don’t have to succumb to my fear of failure &/or shame.  for today, i can be honest in my self observation without harsh judgement.  for today, i can do the next right thing.


* the opinions expressed in this blog are mine and not that of OA

08/29 for today – on feelings

•2015/08/29 • Leave a Comment

“the emotions may be endless. the more we express them, the more we have to express.”

i am a Pisces – a girl in the whirl. so, there are some days that i’m nothing BUT emotion. unfortunately, for much of my life, these emotions have been overwhelmingly negative; fear and anger and loneliness. to buffer myself from the flood i began to eat. this protection worked, too, keeping that little girl from feeling TOO much, keeping her from drowning in the flood. so, it worked… until it didn’t. but by then the habit was ingrained and hard to break. for what ever reason my body reacted to this onslaught of food in such a way as to become more detrimental than the harsh feelings it was intended to protect me from. and at this point, i was not feeling my emotions in the way nature intended for me to.

emotions are a way we communicate both with the world around us and, maybe more importantly, with ourselves. when i stifle that communication, i’m only handicapping myself – three fold! what this design for living gives me is a way to find my feelings again. so that i might actually feel and express them as they were meant to be felt and expressed. the more i am able to do this, the more i uncover and discover about myself. this is the beginning of authentic living. the OA program allows me to find myself, but in such a way as i’m not overwhelmed by what i find.

for today, with a reliance on the god of my understanding and a connection to others like me, i can safely feel both the positive and the negative stuff. for today, i understand that sorting my emotions out in a healthy manner creates a the space for them to live in. for today, program helps me face and handle anger, fear and loneliness, thinning them out to leave space for love and joy to grow strong and healthy.

* the opinions expressed in this blog are mine and not that of OA

8/28 for today – on being teachable

•2015/08/28 • Leave a Comment

“The only means of strengthening one’s intellect is to make up one’s mind about nothing – to let the mind be a thoroughfare for all thoughts.”

Intellect, they say, is the ability to adapt to one’s environment. well, i’m all for that. i’ve always been fairly open minded, it’s what led to some of my previous ‘awakenings’ about the facts of life and the world i live in. sometimes though, i’ve thought i knew it all and was locked down with that knowledge. these are the times i stopped growing as a person. because there is no knowing it all. there is just too much to know; in facts, in concepts, in spiritual truths.

so when i find myself seeming to be locked down with my own knowledge and unwilling to listen or observe something new, i step back, take a breath, and open that lock. as always, i’m not perfect at this, but i know that for me this openness is the better way to be. it is what made me the woman i am today – open, accepting, compassionate as well as intelligent and adaptable. the thing to be is… humble & teachable.

for today – maybe just for this moment – i’m grateful that my life’s journey has brought me right here, as i am. for today, i’m willing to break open any locks i have on the flow of knowledge and thought, leaving myself open and free to learn new and better ways of being the best i can be.

it is this flowing freedom of thought and knowledge that allows the 12-step design for living to work in my life; honesty, open-mindedness, willingness – that’s HOW it works.



* the opinions expressed in this blog are mine and not that of OA

08/23 on living life & freedom

•2015/08/23 • 1 Comment

“let us live while we live.”

i relish the days that there is a natural spring in my step. not the bouncy Tigger kind, but the lift from renewal and burgeoning life. i get that when i’m living a way of life that supports my growth as a human being, my progress on the path toward the best version of myself. that way of living, for me, is found in a consistent spiritual connection to the ‘god’ of my understanding, an honest effort to abstain from compulsive behaviors and my addictions, and observation with out harsh judgement of myself, my actions nor of those in the world around me.

to find a freshness of attitude that is rooted in loving kindness while turning away from cynicism is the style of living i’d like to be immersed in. one that will let me live life as it comes without expectation of motivations or outcomes. that sounds like freedom to me.

~ love & light ~

* the opinions expressed in this blog are mine and not that of OA

08/20 for today – on courtesy

•2015/08/20 • Leave a Comment

“there is a courtesy of the heart. it is akin to love. out of it arises the purest courtesy in the outward behavior.”

when i think on it, ‘courtesy of the heart’ reminds me of another saying, ‘observation without judgement’. but it goes beyond that, too, i think, for it observation is a non-behavior. ‘courtesy of the heart’ is a behavior, it is how i treat others and their business.

like a free ride at the casino… this courtesy does not expect anything in return. it may have set routes, but at the same time, it doesn’t judge what you’re wearing, where you’re going, what you’re doing or who you are. rather, it requires itself to be open and flexible regarding its passengers. am i comparing myself to a courtesy car? eh, maybe a little.

i like the idea of courtesy. and i practice it though certainly not perfectly or as willingly as i should. this courtesy requires me to treat the world with a loving kindness that i don’t always feel. it requires me to set aside judgement first and foremost, as well as anger and fear. those three are very human traits and emotions in the world today. that’s the problem, the world today needs less of them and more loving kindness.. and yes, courtesy.

for today, i am grateful for a higher power that accepts me just as i am; the natural universe has an innate courtesy to do just that. for today, i can do my best to follow that example, treating the world with consideration and courtesy, offering the world a softer place to brush up against. there are enough jagged edges in life, i don’t have to be one of them.

* the opinions expressed in this blog are mine and not that of OA