8/28 for today – on being teachable

•2015/08/28 • Leave a Comment

“The only means of strengthening one’s intellect is to make up one’s mind about nothing – to let the mind be a thoroughfare for all thoughts.”

Intellect, they say, is the ability to adapt to one’s environment. well, i’m all for that. i’ve always been fairly open minded, it’s what led to some of my previous ‘awakenings’ about the facts of life and the world i live in. sometimes though, i’ve thought i knew it all and was locked down with that knowledge. these are the times i stopped growing as a person. because there is no knowing it all. there is just too much to know; in facts, in concepts, in spiritual truths.

so when i find myself seeming to be locked down with my own knowledge and unwilling to listen or observe something new, i step back, take a breath, and open that lock. as always, i’m not perfect at this, but i know that for me this openness is the better way to be. it is what made me the woman i am today – open, accepting, compassionate as well as intelligent and adaptable. the thing to be is… humble & teachable.

for today – maybe just for this moment – i’m grateful that my life’s journey has brought me right here, as i am. for today, i’m willing to break open any locks i have on the flow of knowledge and thought, leaving myself open and free to learn new and better ways of being the best i can be.

it is this flowing freedom of thought and knowledge that allows the 12-step design for living to work in my life; honesty, open-mindedness, willingness – that’s HOW it works.



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08/23 on living life & freedom

•2015/08/23 • 1 Comment

“let us live while we live.”

i relish the days that there is a natural spring in my step. not the bouncy Tigger kind, but the lift from renewal and burgeoning life. i get that when i’m living a way of life that supports my growth as a human being, my progress on the path toward the best version of myself. that way of living, for me, is found in a consistent spiritual connection to the ‘god’ of my understanding, an honest effort to abstain from compulsive behaviors and my addictions, and observation with out harsh judgement of myself, my actions nor of those in the world around me.

to find a freshness of attitude that is rooted in loving kindness while turning away from cynicism is the style of living i’d like to be immersed in. one that will let me live life as it comes without expectation of motivations or outcomes. that sounds like freedom to me.

~ love & light ~

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08/20 for today – on courtesy

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“there is a courtesy of the heart. it is akin to love. out of it arises the purest courtesy in the outward behavior.”

when i think on it, ‘courtesy of the heart’ reminds me of another saying, ‘observation without judgement’. but it goes beyond that, too, i think, for it observation is a non-behavior. ‘courtesy of the heart’ is a behavior, it is how i treat others and their business.

like a free ride at the casino… this courtesy does not expect anything in return. it may have set routes, but at the same time, it doesn’t judge what you’re wearing, where you’re going, what you’re doing or who you are. rather, it requires itself to be open and flexible regarding its passengers. am i comparing myself to a courtesy car? eh, maybe a little.

i like the idea of courtesy. and i practice it though certainly not perfectly or as willingly as i should. this courtesy requires me to treat the world with a loving kindness that i don’t always feel. it requires me to set aside judgement first and foremost, as well as anger and fear. those three are very human traits and emotions in the world today. that’s the problem, the world today needs less of them and more loving kindness.. and yes, courtesy.

for today, i am grateful for a higher power that accepts me just as i am; the natural universe has an innate courtesy to do just that. for today, i can do my best to follow that example, treating the world with consideration and courtesy, offering the world a softer place to brush up against. there are enough jagged edges in life, i don’t have to be one of them.

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08/19 for today – on love

•2015/08/19 • 1 Comment
“the remedy of all blunders,the cure of blindness, the cure of crime, is love.”  ~RWE
i don’t think this means that such things don’t happen, because we’re human.  humanity happens, with all its imperfections.  love is the balm that covers and heals injuries; love edifies and supports.  the difficulty is in finding it within the midst of stress and pain and then applying it properly.
when it comes down to it, the important piece is to find love and apply it, no matter how late, no matter how messy.

for today, i will connect with my source of life, as well as my own imperfect humanity. for today i will connect with the energy of love that flows to and through me, and practice applying it where it is needed.  and it is needed every where.
love is a verb

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08/18 for today

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“to take what there is, and use it, with out waiting forever in vain for the preconceived – to dig deep into the actual and get something out of that – this doubtless is the right way to live.”

to ‘live in the now’ is such a new age thing to say, but it’s a truth that cannot be denied. now is all i have, everything else is smoke, everything but right now is history or imaginings. the right now is the only moment i can actually affect. all i can do with history is to accept it. all i can do for the future is affect the now in a way that MIGHT also make for a future i hope for, still there are no guarantees. if i spend my time waiting for the perfect moment or perfect circumstance, i’m just sitting still stagnating. there is nothing fun or attractive in that picture.

‘to dig deep in the actual’…. there are actual traits and abilities i possess that can be utilized. i don’t need to be a rocket scientist or an award winning something or other… i am what i am and can do what i can do… and not taking advantage of that is a waste of resources. yes.. i am a resource – in my own life and what a better way to honor the natural wonder of that truth than to use it to the best of my ability – wring every bit out of me that i can. that sounds efficient, resourceful and intelligent. go figure.

for today, i’ll connect with my higher power, seeking guidance on how best to live in my ‘now’ using my natural given resources to the best of my ability. this sort of behavior should benefit both myself and those around me.

* the opinions expressed in this blog are mine and not that of OA

08/13 for today

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“to spare oneself from grief at all cost can be achieved only at the price of a total detachment, which excludes the ability to experience happiness.”

in protecting myself from the hurts in life, that cushioning protects me from all feelings. any happiness i’ve felt in those times was surface stuff. it’s when i free myself from these stifling cushions that i can actually feel deep, authentic happiness. i have no reason to fear authentic feelings, both the good and the bad will pass and hopefully most days i’ll be moving along on an even keel.

with a design for living that shows me how to handle life’s situations in a sane and safe way, i have no need to fear any feeling i might have. my feelings are part of my truth and to live authentically, i must honor that truth and experience those feelings.

for today, i have no fear of my feelings. for today, i can reach out for help to both get me through the rough lows and to celebrate the joys. for today, i set aside my ego in order for both ends of the feelings spectrum to be shared.



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08/12 for today

•2015/08/12 • Leave a Comment

“a theorist without practice is a tree without fruit; and a devotee without learning is a house without an entrance.”

‘the proof is in the pudding’… is it any wonder that my analogies are so often food analogies? the pudding in this instance is my life. is there proof there that i’m walking what i’m talking? i know when i don’t see it or feel it, i tend to shut up. who wants to listen to me spout off about how life should be lived when i don’t even follow my own advice. it reminds me of a verse in the bible about sounding like a clanging symbol or some such thing. just noise; empty of melody.

thankfully, i’m not feeling empty of melody these days. and lucky for the rest of the world, i’m not spouting off about how they should be living their lives. i’ve got enough going on tending to my own business. and really, it’s a relief not to be responsible for the entire world.

being open to learning feels much better, and the result of that is growing in emotional and spiritual health, finding joy in living and peace of mind. and judging by my step, my life has a little song in it. this is the fruit i bear by tending to my own business, actually tending to it rather than just talking about it. it’s a wonder what a little effort can bring me. and some days, ‘working my program’ entails very little effort on my part, yet when i’m diligent in that work, i feel the result to multiplied effect.

for today, i’m grateful for the willingness to do what i can do and grateful also, for the faith i have in that doing, understanding that i am moving forward on the path of my life, and though it’s not fast or perfect, i’m making positive progress.




* the opinions expressed in this blog are mine and not that of OA

08/11 for today

•2015/08/11 • Leave a Comment

“true wisdom consists in not departing from nature and in molding our conduct according to her laws and model.”

wow. if ever i had a religion, this would be it; to mold my conduct according to the laws and model of nature. i make attempts, but mostly i suck at it. i’m too prone to be lazy and a seeker of the softer easier way. from my observations, nature isn’t often soft or easy. what it is is honest, authentic, pure even its harshness. living by the laws and model of nature would be a life of integrity, something to aspire to.

i’m feeling rather harsh with myself and the world around me today, so my words may be skewed that way. luckily, it is just a feeling and will pass. i do not need to act on these hard feelings, or bury them… just ride them out and hold onto my abstinence in the process.

for today, i look to nature, seeking guidance and calm from the power outside of my ego and self-will. for today, i will just breath, putting one foot in front of the other to attend to my tasks and commitments. for today, i will not just exist in the world, but be alive in it, and to the best of my ability do the next right thing.

* the opinions expressed in this blog are mine and not that of OA

08/09 for today

•2015/08/09 • Leave a Comment

“what a day may bring, a day may take away.”

there is no holding onto good feelings nor is there ignoring the bad. life happens and i cannot control that. all i have any semblance of control over is my attitude toward all of it. so good and bad things can happen and i can still maintain a level of – if not all out happiness, then – peace and contentment. and that comes from the inside.

cultivating a way of living that enables me to roll with the punches and go with the flow is the best way for me to foster an ongoing sense of feeling good. this cultivation entails keeping a connection to that higher power of my understanding – the natural source of life and being – that is ongoing and accessible; good self-care including treating myself and those around me with loving kindness; accepting life on life’s terms, understanding what i cannot change and what i can act upon to affect in a positive way; and above all, understand that feelings – good or bad – need to be experienced and not escaped from. abstinence is what enables off of this; the clarity it allows, the health it brings, the freedom from the prison of addiction and compulsive behaviors.

it’s amazing what sort of life and living is available to me when i take those first steps to turn away from the abuse of food. just being in the world takes on a whole new shine, when i turn to – or RETURN to – the source; my body, mind and spirit seek their true & natural level.

for today, i’m grateful for tenacity. for today, i’m grateful that – for me – surrendering to my place in the universe only makes me free.

* the opinions expressed in this blog are mine and not that of OA

08/06 for today

•2015/08/06 • Leave a Comment

“when the student is ready, the teacher appears.”

the teacher or teachers, because i’ve had many, are always there. it’s just i actually see them when i open my eyes. so when i put away my misplaced pride and self absorbed ego i have time to pay attention to something else. it’s pretty simple really. self-will run riot is a destructive force in my life, i never learned the art of self-control… self discipline. it’s when i seek a better way – a way other than my own, which is limited by compulsions and obsessions, poor judgement and pretty sad impulse control – that i actually find it. scratch that… i don’t find it, that smacks too much of stumbling accidentally, like “EUREKA! i’ve found it!”. that fact, for me is, if i’m open and willing to be teachable, i get set on the better path – plucked up off the road of self-imposed destruction and placed where i need to be, where i am naturally inclined to be. so it’s in these circumstances, when i’m thinking more clearly and acting on life in a positive manner, that a natural progress forward takes place. there can be no failure here, no perfection either, just a flow forward, away from ruin and toward restoration.

for today, i’m grateful for the willingness to seek a will and a way other than my own soul-sick one. for today, my eyes are open to the teachers in my life and happy for the lessons and opportunities to practice the art of better living.

Open Up Your Eyes by Tonic w/lyrics

Open Up Your Eyes by Tonic w/lyrics
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