09/18 for today – away from the sun

“no passion so effectively robs the mind of all its powers of acting and reasoning as fear”

i’m afraid to write and share any more.  afraid of the shame and disappointment of falling to this disease.  dis-ease.  it is exactly how i feel lately.  like i don’t belong, like i’m not good enough for the recovery rooms.  how freaking crazy is that?  like this current fall from grace is the end of it all.  i can’t let that be true.  i won’t!  more than any fear i am feeling, i  miss feeling better than this.
for today, i reach out to my Higher Power for guidance and comfort.  for today, i am thankful that i don’t have to succumb to my fear of failure &/or shame.  for today, i can be honest in my self observation without harsh judgement.  for today, i can do the next right thing.

 


* the opinions expressed in this blog are mine and not that of OA

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~ by ghyllee mahree on 2015/09/18.

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