motivating forces

“There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.”     ~ John Lennonlove is with us...

 

 


i intended to come here and rant and whine about this… that it’s not so fucking easy as these new age prophets make it out to be.  at least for me it’s not easy.  it’s HARD.  it takes mindfulness and intention.  there’s no light switch to being a lovely little flower child with pure love for the brother(& sister)hood of mankind.  okay, so i did it, i got my whine in… now on to putting some Pollyanna on that shit.

I know just how true that John Lennon quote is, it speaks to me.  It speaks about me.

I’ve lived in fear for most of my life.  Oh I’ve had moments of openness, but for some reason, I’ve not been able to hold on to those for an extended period of time.  I can’t believe that’s a conscious choice i make; who –  in their right mind – would choose pain over pleasure; and I’m not talking about the pain that mingles with pleasure for all of us masochistic freaks.

Anyway, I keep getting interrupted in this writing, which is fine.  I just don’t want to lose my trains of thought…

I think the fears keep me from realizing &/or remembering that love is inherent in me.  There is no putting it there, it IS there.  It’s part of how I’m made, one of the energies that flow through and around me.  So the issue is in accessing it.  And maybe that takes more than a couple of times of practice to get good at doing.  Living mindfully is a skill, really.  And even the most skilled of us had to have started from greenness, with practice, lessons, bumps, bruises, blisters, and absolute screw ups.

So, even when i feel like a complete failure at life and that i can’t get to living right, after a few breaths i find hope for myself once again.  I saw another word image on the fb this morning, something like…  Faith is knowing there is light somewhere even when all i see is darkness.  Funny, my old therapist was rather impressed by this ‘skill’ of mine.

Anyways…  love n’ light, y’all.  xo

P.S.  (Green is for GO!)

 

 

 

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~ by ghyllee mahree on 2014/06/28.

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